.blood donation drive.

it's the annual blood donation drive today. it's my first time wanting to be a blood donor. =) i was hesitating whether i should go for it or not before the break because i am scare of needles. after going through some mental struggle, i thought why not? it means no harm. in fact, i am saving lives indirectly.

the 3 brave souls, including myself, went to the hall, where the drive was held,during our lunch break. the hall was packed. i was surprised at the overwhelming response. =) kindness is all around us. i passed the first station successfully because it was some admin stuff. however, things are not that smooth sailing.

when i told the doc that i took the anti-malara injection in nov last year, he immediately rejected me. =( that injection, together with my weight had made me an unsuitable donor. he said if i were above 52kg, i would be able to donate my blood today. since that is not the case, i have to wait for 2 more years before i can be a blood donor. disappointed.

i told my parents about this when i got home. both reacted differently. my dad was obviously not paying attention to what i was saying because he told me to drink lots of water to replenish the blood i had donated. duh! i did NOT donate any blood today. as for my mum, she gave me this are-you-sure look? she actually advised me not to do such things again. WHY NOT? i guessed it is because we both have a different mentality towards blood donation. she sees it as a dangerous thing to do and thinks that it will harm my health. that's WRONG! is that what we called generation gap?

2 years later, what will i be doing? where will i be? how will i look like? will i be a blood donor then?

"overcome your fears to see a brighter sky"

.which type.

how many types of bus drivers are there on earth? those who ignored me and drove past the bus stop despite me flagging for the bus pissed me off the most. were they blind or what?? i can understand if the bus was about to brust and throw passengers out from the entrance, exit and even the windows. (maybe we will be able to spot the next superman or wonderwoman among those flying people. haha... what's new? the lame karen) besides these 'blind' bus drivers, there are bus drivers with lousy attitude. i cannot believe that they are not fired by the company yet. how are they supposed to serve the public when they treat the passengers like dirt and give us the black face when we board the bus? hey! you choose to work in the service sector and so please do your job with pride. even if we forgot to tag our ez link cards, i do NOT see why you have to shout at the top of your lungs to get us to do so. you do NOT have to embarrass us in front of the public. (does that ring a bell?) it makes it a frustrating and unpleasant trip for both parties. although some passengers want to get a free ride, it does not mean that all passengers who do not tag their card do that on purpose. some can be due to pure forgetfulness. do not sterotype people!

on the other extreme end, there are those super extremely nice bus drivers. i actually met one who greeted every single passenger when we board the bus. obviously, it was during the non-peak hour. even if he did not greet me "good morning" or " good afternoon", a simple smile and acknowlegement would do the same. it makes the passengers feel welcomed and it will definitely make the passengers' day. =)

fortunately for me, i met a nice bus driver today. as the bus was approaching a bus stop, a young man and middle-aged man starting running to the bus stop. i could feel the bus was slowing down. in fact, the bus driver was trying his best to drive at almost the same as the running men. this little action may seem insignificant but it means a lot to the middle-aged and young men. at least society still cares for the people around us. =)

talking so much about the different type of bus drivers in spore, what type of person am i? my secondary school organised a talk on choosing our future career prospects based on our personality when i was in upper secondary. at that time, it was the best indicator of my personality. there are 4 different types of character. the first one is C which is very careful, calculative, does a lot of planning and concerned with details. D is the dominating type who is seen as potential leaders. I is always the source of laughter among the friends, happy-go-lucky type. and the last character is S who values relationships, less decisive and more emotional. which type do you think you are. i belong to the C and D group. what shocked me most was my private self and public self were the direct opposite of each other. people see me as the S and I group but the true me belongs to the C and D group. omg!

who is the true karen? i always think i am a very difficult person to understand and i still believe in that. very few people actually knows me inside out, left to right, up to down. most people have this mentality that i am the pampered and spoilt brat because i am the youngest child in the family. well, i do not think they are right. my age gap between me and my elder siblings are huge. my sis is older than me by 10 and my brother is older than me by 13. omg!!! maybe that's why i would rather depend on myself than others. i will not choose to run to my siblings whenever i meet with a problem because i do not want to bother them with my life. come on, i am 18. i believe i am matured and sensible enough to handle my own problems. furthermore, they have their own lives to live. they are already adults and i am sure they have more problematic questions than mine to solve.

i do not express my feelings very well. maybe i am being sensitive to the people around me. some may give me the are-you-sure look when they read this because i always 'niao' my friends. yes yes... i know it's bad and unhealthy but i choose my 'niao-ing' partners wisely. i will only do that if i know that friend does not mind. you do not see me doing that to all my friends right? (i hope to hear a YES)

hmm.. what else? i cannot think of anything now. what do you know about karen? post it!

"a simple smile can do wonders"

.heavy indulgence.

hey zhai! i am dying too. i will continue to update my blog whenever i can okay?

what do you do when you are out of your comfort zone? some people will behave out of their norm. they may isolate themselves from their circle of friends. they will keep everything to themselves and are unwilling to share anything with anyone. their friends will then find it hard to re-enter their world since they are not putting in any effort to accept their friends again. relationship is something that needs 2 hands to clap right? on the other extreme end, some will react it to positively. they take it as a challenge and a time to train themselves to be mentally stronger. i admire these people as they are the ones with the will power to influence people around them. well, others may start to indulge in comfort eating. well, that's me. one of the best comfort food on earth must be chocolates right? haha... that's my favourite. when i am feeling all stressed up, down or blue, chocolates are the best remedy to make me feel good. =) that's why i need to stock up my chocolate supply soon cos the stressed up period is coming.

i ate a lot of chocolates today. i ate a bar of fruits and nut chocolate and 5 fun packs chocolate. omg!!!! isn't it amazing. haha... karen is getting fat. wonder how i will look like when i am fat. like a ball? a big fat one?

back to mugging. cya! =D

"have faith in yourself and you will make it there"

Before you think of saying an unkind word
Think of someone who can't speak

Before you complain about the taste of your food
Think of someone who has nothing to eat

Before you complain about your husband or wife
Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion today

Before you complain about life
Think of someone who went too early to heaven

Before you complain about your children
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren

Before you argue about your dirty house; someone didn't clean or sweep
Think of the people who are living in the streets

Before whining about the distance you drive
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet

And when you are tired and complain about your job
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down
Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around

Life is a gift Live it. Enjoy it. Celebrate it. And fulfill it.

i found this in an email. meaningful? i hope so. at least it is meaningful to me. there is at least a test everyday this week. my energy level is burning low. my mood swings a lot today. maybe it is because of the low energy level in my body. hopefully i did not offend anybody with my foul mood. friday is coming which means weekend is coming too. it also means i am a step closer to prelims and a levels. do you think it's a depressing thought? NO! the faster i clear my papers, i faster i can truly enjoy myself with no worries. =)

"live life to the fullest"

.live the moment.

they are going solo next year. worried for them. i do not have much confidence in them yet. they are not performing as a whole. have they done their job well? i dont know. i do not see any improvements whenever i make a trip down. instead it is deteriorating. am i expecting too much? lower your expectations girl! that's what i have been trying to tell myself to do for the past few days. i cannot!!! there's no room for compromise. how can i change my expectations according to their needs? they should be aiming to meet or even exceed my expectations. they need to shock me. i need them to surprise me with something good and satisifactory.

they will improve one day. they will make full use of the time when i am absent to brush up on their skills. hope.

"live the moment"

.another test.

Lemon Tea...Strong willed and a bit feisty in temper you stand
out from other people! Creative but dangerous
you have few friends and those that have been
accepted into your small group are special and
unique just like yourself. Once your mind is
made up that's it and no one can change it. You
can think clearly and figure out just what to
do in a tense situation which is a rare gift.
You arent twisted by societies rules and
regulations and are rebel by nature!

What type of Tea are you? {-With Anime Pictures!-}
brought to you by quizilla

.tests.

i am bored. there are 3 tests coming up next week. yes, i know that i should be studying but i need a break right? =)



Your element is Fire: Strong, hot tempered,
powerful, and passionate. Well now lets see,
being fire you are quite strong and powerful,
people look up to you greatly and often seek
your protection. You have the ability to gain
many friends and you are always one people can
count on to do what you say you will do. You
are extremely loyal be it friends or family
you'll stick up for them and you are never
willing to put them in a position that could
hurt them. You know what roll you play in life,
leader, and you intend to let people know it.
Not everyone is capable of leadership but you
certainly have the willpower and flare to do
it. You have quite a temper if it shows itself,
one that can often lead you into trouble. Once
your mind is made up there is no changing it
but no one said that was a bad thing.

.:-What is your true element?-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
brought to you by quizilla

.argH.

bad. worse. worst. terrible. horrible. this is my day. =(

it's frustrating when i cannot express my opnions openly in front of others. something is holding back my tongue. am i being sensitive to the people in the conversation? or maybe i need more time to gather my thoughts? why am i being so afraid here? i am the least emotional person in kns. friends always say that i am heartless and emotionless. what is happening to me? i am allowing my emotions to affect the way i think too much. it's far too much. it has gone beyond the line. i must stop it. dont let my heart rule my mind.

should i continue to hold on to the past that is fading into the background? move on, girl! that's what i have been always talking myself. it's sad to witness such an ending but... i dont know what to say. let the memories stay with me forever.

"breakaway"

.eve of national day.

the day started on a BAD note. a thunderstorm was brewing when i woke up in the morning. within a few minutes, raindrops started to tap on the rooftop. i was praying and hoping that the rain would cease within 15 minutes so that i did not have to bring an umbrella on my way to school. i am a plain lazy girl. i will rather get wet in the rain and fall sick than to bring an umbrella. so troublesome. i waited till the very last minute and the rain was still as heavy as before. i had no choice but to dump the umbrella into my bag. once again, my effort was wasted. the rain stopped when i was walking to the bus stop. irritaing! that was not all. i have to be caught in the mad bukit timah traffic jam in the morning. the bus was moving at snail's speed. it took the bus 20 minutes to move from KAP to nj. madness!!!

i did not enjoy the march in parade as much as the previous years. it was held in the assembly ground. for goodness sake, how was i supposed to see the parade when there were so many people towering over me. irritaing!! i am a sucker for parades. =) i had a big shock when i saw how they decorated the podium with red and white balloons and our dearest parade commander had to stand there. what a great contrast! was i supposed to take the parade commander seriously or was he going to put up some clown acts for us? hmm....

we did not have the norm national day celebrations. no performances by the various cultural groups and no patriotic sing-a-long sessions. when the sch organises such programmes for us, students will complain that it is boring and no creativity. actually, i miss the norm programmes today. i guessed i would have enjoyed myself more than being a befriender.

when the old folks arrived, we brought them to the LT5 to watch performance. i had to admit that the organisers are a little bit brainless. how could they expect to sit all the students and guests in that miserable LT5 when it was almost full with students before the guests came. omg!!!! no offence here but did they think about the 'what ifs'??? after that, we had some activities and it was finally refreshment. here is another part that pissed me off today.

the few of us went to order drinks for the old folks. i was disgusted by the drink stall auntie's behaviour. it did not mean that when those drinks were meant for the old folks, you could give lesser quantity of drink per cup. that's ridiculous!!! hello??? they are humans too ya? she demanded money before she allowed us to take the drinks. hello??? we would NOT disappear immediately okay. we are responsible students. argH!!! after we had sent the old folks back to their welfare centres, it's time for CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY.

omg!! how i wish willy wonka's choco factory does exist in the world and i am one of the lucky 5 to find the golden ticket in one of his wonka's whipple-scrumtious fudgemallow delight choco bar. it is a fantasy, a place where all the kids and i will love. the choco river, the invention roon, the oompa-loompas. willy wonka's madness and his stupid laughter, his great glass elevator and many many more. it was heart warming towards the end of the movie when charlie taught him the true meaning of family. wonka had never felt that he had one because of his over protective dentist father. wonka even had problem pronouncing the word "parents". sometimes when your parents start to nag at you, do NOT throw your temper at them. instead, take a deep breathe, think and feel their love for you. =)

that's all folks! have a great holiday. early HAPPY 40th BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE!!!! cannot wait for the parade tomorrow night.

"because they care"

.madness.

it's raining, it's pouring.

the late morning rain dampened my high spirit for PE. ever since the hand ball PE lesson on last tuesday, i am in love with PE. no formulas to use, no concepts to strengthen, no theories to understand. PE is just about active participation, enjoyment and keeping fit. =) a few of us went to change into our PE attires in a lightning speed in hope that we were able to 'chop' the gym. life is never smooth sailing. in the end, we had to settle for the hall. actually it was not a bad option. when we went in, it was pitch dark. woohoo!!! a perfect atmosphere to play hide-and-seek. we were shouting and screaming in the hall like nobody's business. however, good times never last for long. the lights were on and we started our badminton games! although it was not as physically demanding as hand ball, it was a great feeling to workout and sweat a little. =)

we had our usual phys extra tutorial today. nobody was looking forward to it. we had a great time talking crap in the canteen while having our lunch. goi was as lag as usual and she became one of our jokes. oops... not forgetting jess and hq...

we were waiting for tek outside one of the com labs and finally, we saw him running towards us. thinking back, it's amusing when the few of us had the same reaction when we saw him running. we cheered him on as if he was running a race on the sports day. jess added on to the fun by pretending to keep track of his running time. haha... we sure had a good laugh. =D

thursday marks a step closer to friday. yes yes yes! the weekend is coming soon. charile and the chocolate factory opens today! omg!!!! i am going to catch it soon. =) yeah yeah yeah!!!

"laughter is the best medicine"

.pissed.

nv visit a polyclinic on monday no matter how sick you are. that's the worst decision i made today. i registered at 130pm and got out of the place only at 445pm. irritating! a complete waste of time. worst of all, they lost my medical certificate at the collection point. i was like "thanks so much for your nice surprise". i waited a hell lot of time to see the doctor for less than 10 minutes and they expected me to waste more time when it was their fault to misplace my MC. what a joke! furthermore, i am not the patient type of girl. i had this urge to slap on their desktop to shout at them to wake up their idea to start making things work for me. i was sooo damn freaking pissed. so much talk about efficiency and productivity. i am so sorry but i could see none today.

after a while, they finally found my long lost MC. i grabbed it and stormed out of the polyclinic. there was clearly a message written across my face - provoke me at your own risk. i could not afford to waste anymore time and walked from central back home. the more i think about it, the faster i walked. as i was about to walk across the overhead bridge, i saw a group of nhss guys playing bball at the HDB bball court. 2 girls were sitting by the stools near the court. i thought what are the girls doing? sitting there and staring into space? what a waste of time! are they looking at their guyfriends playing bball? didn't they have better things to do? i stared hard at a guy who smoked when he walked past me. smelly piece of shit! i hate people who smoke. argh!!! everything was getting on my nerves.

i guess i need to find some time to learn how to train my patience.

"patience is never found within me"